First Love ...

DEAR FIRST LOVE,

The first time my heart beat ran faster

The first time I lied to myself 

The first time I really wanted a mirror

The first time my mind blew

It was only because of YOU .

I may not be able to use the appropriate words to describe you because "YOU" are one of the most special miracles that ever happened to me. Since the childhood days, I had decided "Mera husband papa jaisa hoga", but as I grew, I realised that there is a lot more between my papa and husband, and there you came , My First Love

The morning assemblies would never have been such a bliss. I still remember fighting to my friends just to find a place from where I could take a glimpse of you. The cultural programmes never interested me but as an audience or as a participant I paid more focus on you than my performance. Those lunch breaks, aahhhh . . inspite of all that “ food fights “ I never forgot to notice you , because each time you came to drink water, I automatically felt thirsty.

The madness I felt thinking about you, made me crazier. While going to the computer lab, whenever I passed through your class, I noticed your friends teasing you and that’s what I faced “ dekho TMHARA WALA. Ek baar dekh to lo yaar“ .Though I pretended to be irritated but deep down, I could feel my heart jumping. I tried to hide my smile but it always refused to go. It has always dutifully came along with your name.

I still see the same brightness and that shyness when I see my younger ones going through the same phase. Now, atleast they have whatsaap. They can send pics, “a beating heart”, smileys (including the kisses too). But all that we had , was a “normal” phone with a message pack (only if you were lucky enough), an over-excited mind and a “24-hours” smiling face and yes, not to forget that deleting of messages which caused the deepest pain.

Oh, how can anyone describe you?  HOW?

It’s the first time feeling of doing “ANYTHING” for someone. It’s like, riding a horse whom we don’t know how to control. It’s like, eating ice-cream in the winter. We know it would harm us but still, we can’t resist.

You are one thing, nobody can ever forget. EVER. Although everybody is not blessed enough to keep you with them all through their life but I am thankful you happen to everyone. For some, you go till a really good distance, for some u come only from one-side and for some, you are just “ bachpana tha yaar “ .

Thank you for letting me expand my boundaries, for giving me a life-time memory, for making my days special, for making me strong for the future, for making me realize what I really want.

Thank you for feeling me loved, for the very first time, my Love.

You will forever stay young in my memories!

Tujhse thi raat, tujhse thi raaton ki har karwat,

qki mere harsapne me tu tha, meri PEHLI MOHABBAT !