THE CONVERSATION

THE CONVERSATION

1:30am

“ Hey, are you asleep ?“ 

 “No, not yet, Say”                                                                                                                                 “Thankyou "

 “For what” 

“ For being so meek, I dint feel as if I was being written on. You just kept gliding “  . The Expression sheet of the notebook had already turned pink. She was blushing.  

  “ Oh well, I guess it’s all because of you and your angelic skin. Not every page is as beautiful as you “ . The blue parker pen said in response.   

 “ I have never ever felt a tickle before on my skin” Expression declared shyly.  

  “ and neither have I felt so great even after being used for hours.”

An awkward silence followed the remark .  

“ You are amazing “ . “You are beautiful "                                                                                             They both blurted out together. The moment was mesmerizing. The white Expression paper glowed in a golden form of texture. Parker was beaming with ecstasy. The magical moment broke at once when he remembered that he has not much life left.

He said “ we should sleep now. Atul starts his work early in the morning “                                                                                                                                                                                                                    6:30am

Expression woke up. The sun shun brilliantly. Parker was still in his sleep and he looked majestic to her. His fine blue texture complemented his manly shaped body. He was on her. She tried to take a closer look. She had never seen anything so perfect. Parker was the one she needed, she had waited for. His extra gentle nib seemed as innocent as it was while writing. Parker moved a bit. Expression backed at once. The sunlight casted over Parker and made him a bit uncomfortable. The cold breeze was not one of the things expression liked to mess with but she had to for Parker. As the breeze blew, she lifted herself and fell gently on him, enveloping him from all the sides as if embracing him, smoothly, affectionately. She wanted everything to stop but the breeze kept blowing. It was cold but Parker was warmer.  She felt the heat of his body, his metallic body, for the first time and she was electrified. She has not ever felt so amazing before. Parker kept taking turns. “ Oh the breeze, can you just sit down for a moment “. She cursed. Just then she saw Atul coming towards the study table and she knew what was going to happen next.                                                                                              To her surprise, he didn’t touch her, neither did he took parker away. May be she had managed to make him invisible under her skin. Atul took one pen from the side and went. Parker was still in her arms. Sleeping like a care-free child. Expression kept staring at him. It was totally hypnotising.

7:15am

Finally, Atul came. He pulled her back from Parker and started his work. Parker was already awake but this time he had to open his eyes. Expression smiled at him. Atul took parker in his fingers and jolted him for a few times. Parker started gliding over her. She loved the tickle, She wanted to dance with joy. Parker just looked at her. He knew anytime from now he would be thrown in the dustbin.

The gliding stopped. It was the worst nightmare for Expression. For the first time since morning, Parker smiled. He didn’t want his last good bye to be awful. Atul jolted him again and pressed him against Expression for one last time. Parker took the opportunity and kissed her with all his strength. Expression stood still, bewildered, unprepared. Parker’s liquid was over and so was his work. Atul threw him in the dustbin within a blink. He took a new pen and started again. Expression was left all alone. She still felt the long press of Parker on her skin. She knew this had to happen someday. She closed her eyes and let the other pen do her task. She wasn’t enjoying it anymore. But she had no other option.                                                                                                                                                Suddenly she saw Parker peeping through the hole of the dustbin. He smiled. She blushed.

The story wasn’t over yet !!!

CAT RESULTS - THE BATTLE HAS JUST BEGUN

CAT RESULTS 2016

So here is the affidavit of what I did for the past 5 months. Here is the topic of discussion for Sharma aunty and Mishra uncle for the next few days. Here is the certificate of my knowledge level. Here is what all I could do.  . . . But now what? Will the society accept me? Will my parents disown me? I was preparing for it for the last 5 months and is this all that I deserve? How will I ever overcome this?  .Why GOD , why? Why did you do this to me? 

OH REALLY ???

61 PERCENTILE . Yes, this is what I got and am not ashamed of announcing this on my blog. Quant took me down. Had it been a few more marks in quant, I could get approx 70-75 . .( which is also not very appreciable).                                                                                                                                     ” HAD IT BEEN.” Conditional sentence but I couldn’t fulfill that condition. So am I supposed to feel bad now? Do I need to skip today’s dinner? Should I switch off my mobile or data to stay away from those morons who are more interested in my percentile than theirs’? What should I do?  . . . 

 Well,I am trying to “ Stay Normal “ . Trust , trust is a very magical word and I am glad my parents still trust me. After sending my result , I received my father’s message and it read “ What matters to me is your hard work. A day will come when it will bear the fruits and in this journey, I am with you”. My mom is just glad that I am not disheartened and crying. And for my brother, I know I ll always be his topper behen (irrespective of the results :p) aur friends , wo saaley to hmesha hi jhaad pe chadha k rakhte hai. My result was more shocking to them than it was to me and it was then i  realised  . .. “ kitne dramebaaz hai saaley “ :P

I must appreciate that all this has given me a lot of courage and with all this courage I want to say something. .

I AM NOT ASHAMED OF MY RESULT. I AM NOT REGRETTING THAT I COULD HAVE PUSHED MYSELF A BIT MORE. I AM NOT GATHERING EXCUSES TO EXPLODE THEM WHEN ASKED ABOUT THE REASON BEHIND MY RESULT. I MARKED THE ANSWERS. IT WASN’T ANYBODY ELSE. I DIDN’T TAKE THE EXAM UNDER PRESSURE. I WAS FULL AWARE OF WHAT I WAS DOING. I DID MY BEST. I REALLY TRIED WITH ALL MY WILL AND THUS, I HEREBY, ACCEPT MY RESULT WHOLE HEARTEDLY.

As I had said earlier, my life is not going to end with CAT and look, it didn’t. Shouldn’t have I died after seeing the result but see, I am very much ALIVE, POSITIVE and READY. Ready for the next results, for more disasters, ready to stand up again and fight back.

This wasn’t the bonafide certificate of my capabilities . There is more I can do , There is more I have.                  Mere KUMAR SIR kehte hai “ ek 10 page k paper me AUKAAT nahi ki tumhari AUKAAT decide kare”.

To those 61% people below me and to those 39% above me, “ There is more to life than this. Don’t think about the people around. Let them take your tension (waise bhi enke paas koi dusra kam nahi hota ). Stay calm. There will be more difficult things in life and even more Beautiful things to rejoice. If you gave your 100% (like me), it’s time we should increase our measuring parameter and to those who still think they could have done more –  pehle 100% de lo tab devdas banna “.

So enough of this Dear Zindagi . But guys , don’t wait for Dr. Jung to arrive ( unless he is as hot as SRK) . Be your own hero. It’s your story , why should someone else get more limelight than you. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. . . KUMAR SIR SAYS “ GIVE TO LIFE MORE THAN LIFE WILL EVER GIVE YOU AND TAKE FROM LIFE MORE THAN WHAT LIFE HAS TAKEN FROM YOU “. And for that, You need to pull your socks up.

Stay focused. Don’t let your dreams fade away because once you have a dream , you got to protect it . Wo kehte hai na “ khwaisho ko jeb me rakh kar ghoma kijiye, jannab kharcha bahut hota hai manzilon ko paane mein” . ( ye kumar sir ka nahi piyush mishra sir ka hai :p )

THE DARKEST HOURS ARE JUST BEFORE THE DAWN... Keep flying , keep trying . AND  . DO SOMETHING TO GET SOMETHING ! (ye mera khud ka tha :p )

P.S : Eske baad kisi ne result pucha ya message kar ke sympathy di ~ Kasam se acha nahi hoga ! B-)